The Journey so Far (Entry Log 1)

If anyone had told me the life of an adult wouldn't be easy i wouldn't have wished so eagerly to grow up. The thing was I believe we were all tired of being told what to do, when to do what and what not, we all wanted control of our lives. If only someone had actually sat us down to explain the complication involved in being an adult, the decisions we have to make, the hard choices, sacrifices and pains we would go through, I’m sure I’d have found a way to never land to join Peter Pan in his crusade to remain young forever. I know someone out there would say, yes they did advise us or try to warn us but we didn't listen. Well, only thing i can say is you didn't pass the message clear enough!!! Not blaming you or anything, it’s just how i feel. I can’t even complete my Blog without fear that someone would call me out on grammatical errors or misuse of punctuation or something. There’s always got to be something wrong.

Think about it, we are in a world filled with laws, rules, technology, propaganda, war, disaster and what not. Sometimes it feels like world war 3 is about to kick off at any second. If only i could pat myself on the back and say, “son, it will be alright”. Since I can’t do that myself, i turn to religion like we all do (some of us), praying for divine intervention, with hope that our faith would be enough to provide some sort of comfort. Even that itself is not easy because the world out there would not let it be.

Believe me, I’m not the type to moan and complain I've always taken whatever comes my way with a pinch of salt, put my chin up and just played it cool. But now, here i am sitting in front of my laptop punching away at the keys like they were some adversary of mine, in an eternal battle for survival.

Some very optimistic soul out there (God bless you all), would say, “Look at the bright side, you are alive, breathing and well”.....But is that enough? What if I want more, what if instead of waiting to be mega rich or whatever, I just want to be happy and not always think and worry and stress. But maybe if i didn't I wouldn't be writing this down on my Blog.

“Why a Blog?” some people would ask, my answer is, ‘because I’m hoping to reach out to people who feel as I do and can’t express it no matter how hard they try’, there a millions of people who just like have bottled things up for so long and never get a chance to express it and then what happens to them? They get snuffed out like a candle in the wind...just like that.

I lost a friend a few weeks back, we weren't like the best of buddies or anything but someone i met along the way in this marvelous journey we call life. I still wonder why, what did my friend do wrong? This friend of mine wasn't perfect or anything but was striving to be and just a few weeks after celebrating the birth of a child....my friends light were turned off, just like that. I’m not trying to make this about my friend or looking for emotional closure, I’m trying to reach out to the voiceless those who need to be related with, those that need to be comforted, those that need to find their way don’t know how. I can’t give any religious advice because I’m still searching for them myself, but all I can say is that you are not alone in this journey and i hope we can reach out to each other.

I’m sure I’m probably going to get better at this (blogging or whatever this is called), because im not even sure how to end my little story, but I’m sure to return in a bit, to pour my heart out once again. Until then, “ciao”!!